i stood in front of the mirror to tie my hair back before bed. (i don’t know why i always watch myself do that). this time my gaze was not met with the usual girl who stands before me, but a new, yet familiar, woman.
i’ve never really feared aging, or perhaps i just never gave it much thought?
it felt bittersweet to wave girlhood goodbye, still in my teenage years. - i’m just a baby, but a woman nonetheless. i’m that sweet little girl dressed head-to-toe in pink, hair up in the most precious-looking pigtails. my bottom lip still sneaks out sometimes when i cry, the same way it did with her. i hug my mother and her smell catapults me back in time to when that girl and i were one in the same.
i once heard someone say that adulthood is learning to parent the child who lives within, so i always make sure comb my hair with extra care. that way, it doesn’t hurt if i pull on my scalp. (i always hated that.)
you can eat the ice cream you’ve been thinking about all day, but remember to eat a good meal too.
it’s cold outside, so you should wear an extra layer to stay warm and cosy. otherwise, you might catch a cold.
take a bottle of water with you in case you get thirsty, especially during the summer.
i care for her.
baby, you’ve grown so big.
life changes like the seasons and with each shift, i think of you.
i live for that little girl.
i’m a big girl now - a woman - i take care of myself.
i take care of her.
~ grace xx
ps: the photo of jellyfish is one i took during my recent visit to the sea life centre with my grandparents and my little sisters. it reminded me of that immense fascination and awe you feel as a child when looking at things like exotic animals. i hope it never withers. i think i would like to be reincarnated as a jellyfish.